bendita tu luz

sometimes i think that maybe i am just missing out in a big part of life.
maybe it's the fact that i don't tend to party as often as i should for my age.
or maybe the fact that, maybe just maybe, i'm still holding out for that perfect head over heels, weak at the knees romance.
i dont know what it is.
but everytime i listen to some songs, that feeling comes through.
maybe it's just the fact that everyone around me is happily paired up.
but i know i don't need a guy to make me happy.
i am happy, it's just, it feels like something is missing.

the dreamer and the sleeper

on that note, I actually had a crappy sleep last night.
it could have been the 5 hours of sleep i got
or the fact that i’ve been watching too much lost and now i am dreaming about it.
it’s no fun getting chased, or dreaming about the show (the scary/intense parts, anyways).
cause if it was the parts with matthew fox or any of those other lovely guys I would have been fine.
but it can’t be called nightmares if your dreaming about awesome, lovely things.
anyways, back to watching lost.

ps. i seem to never learn a lesson. lol.

lost overload

jonas overload.

fall in love

Directions:
1. Put your iPod, iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Chris Brown - Superhuman

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Stars - He lied about death

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Shantelle - T-shirt

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Hot latino summer mix

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Micheal Buble - Save the last dance for me.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Enrique Iglesias and Nadia - Tired of being sorry

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
PCD - I don't need a man

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
MIA - paper planes

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MOST OFTEN?
Paul Anka - Amigos

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Justin Timberlake - Rock your body

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE(s)?
Enrique Iglesias - Dont turn off the lights

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Pink - Dear Mr.President

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Plain White T's - Cinderella Story

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU GROW UP?
John Mayer - Your body is a wonderland

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Usher - Make love in this club [hahahhhaha<33]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTERESTS
New Kids on the Block - Dirty dancing

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Ne-Yo - Closer

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Ivy Queen feat Nina Sky - Ladies night

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Kevin Rudolf - Let it rock

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
John Mayer - Daughters

WHAT DO PEOPLE FIRST ASSUME WHEN THEY LOOK AT ME?
Teddy Geiger - As we get older

WHAT WILL BE A BIG CHALLENGE FOR ME IN LIFE?
Good Charlotte - I dont wanna be in love

AM I A GOOD GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND?
Gavin Rossdale - Can't stop the world

HOW WILL I DIE?
New Kids on the Block - I will be loving you forever

IS SOMEONE TRYING TO KILL ME?
Jonas Brothers - Burning up

WHAT SHOULD I DO INSTEAD OF THIS QUIZ?
Wisin y Yandel - Unknown

WHAT IS A BAD HABIT THAT I SHOULD TRY AND STOP?
Kanye West - Golddigger

WHATS FOR DINNER TONIGHT?
Ne-Yo - Hate that i love you

HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE ME?
Various Artists - Quimbara

WILL I HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Mana - Rayando el sol

WHAT DO MY FRIENDS REALLY THINK ABOUT ME?
Pink - Sober

DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER ME?
Camila - Abrazame

HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?
Celia Cruz - La negra tiene tumbao

WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE?
Jason Mraz- Stranger in the sky

WHY IS LIFE FULL OF SO MUCH PAIN?
Salsa - baila con migo

HOW CAN I MAXIMIZE PLEASURE DURING SEX?
Daddy Yankee feat Arcangel - Pasion

WILL I EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Don Omar - Reggeaton Latino

WILL I DIE HAPPY?
Taylor Swift - Breathe

WHAT IS SOME GOOD ADVICE TO ME?
Sean Paul - Give it up to me

WHAT IS HAPPINESS?
Lights - Drive my soul

WHAT IS MY FAVOURITE FETISH?
Teddy Geiger - She's on my mind.

HOW WILL I BE REMEMBERED?
Mana - Oye mi amor

HOW DO I GET MORE SEX?
Micheal Buble - The way you look tonight

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR PARENTS?
Drake Bell - Drake and Josh Theme song

WHAT SHOULD YOUR NAME BE?
Aaliyah - Miss you

BEST FEATURE?
Taylor Swift - Fearless

WHO DO YOU LUST AFTER?
PCD - When I grow up

WHAT MAKES YOU ANGRY?
One Republic - All we are

WHAT MAKES YOU SAD?
Enrique Iglesias feat Nadiya - Tired of being sorry

I believe

I believe in rainy days and rainbows.
I believe in listening to music to fall asleep
I believe in standing up for what you believe
I believe in falling in love
I believe in autumn afternoon walks
I believe in the colour of summer
I believe in the leafs that fall from trees
I believe in the small things in life
I believe in living life to the fullest
I believe in having the right to your own opinion
I believe in staying up all night waiting for the sunrise
I believe in waiting for sunset
I believe in roadtrips with friends and loud music
I believe in photographs
I believe in the stories we have to share
I believe in the faith of the world
I believe in getting timagotchi's for birthdays
I believe in spinning till getting sick
I believe in summer days spent at the beach
I believe in humanity
I believe in the world
I believe in curling up and reading on winter afternoons
I believe in drinking hot chocolate
I believe in the moments that are to come
I believe in movies
I believe in laughing
I believe in crying
I believe in screaming
I believe in being cute
I believe in staying in touch
I believe in getting through the tough problems
I believe in reaching your dreams
I believe in fairy tales
I believe in christmas stories
I believe in children
I believe in what you have to say
I believe in living
I believe in aliens
I believe in ice cream and movies
I believe in myself

omg, fml.

i am no where near done my think piece,
and i haven't even started my essay
fml

i need a boy

i fail at relationships of any sort.
it's awesome.
i feel bad for turning someone down, so i play nice.
which at the end, it backfires
and ends up hurtin' me more than hurt them.
great

< / 3

/end.

remixes and covers

i bless the rains down in africa

can you hear me

how come there are never words to express condolences,
worries, sickness.
there is always the repetitive "i am sorry", "it will be okay", "stay strong".
but i know unless one has gone through what that person is going through there is no real words to say.
I know my words aren't any better but,
steph, it will be okay
<3

lloro por ti

i am really hungry
and its almost 11pm.
i think i might find something to eat.

my feet are still killing from those damn shoes
but the ball was fun.
lots of drunk people, but nice.

brunch at u of t. was nice,
nice rez experience i guess lol
the people were nice.
and i was starving so the food was good;
hah

ew, chys to edit tonight,
great

find me

i hate vitamin c pills.
they are so sour and gross,
but i have to take them.
sadly.

i do not feel like going to spanish class today
it's just a drag.
just ugh.

my hip hurts today.
i feel like such an old woman.
i just wanna sleep

i also have to finish my chys before saturday night
awesomness...

http://www.wimp.com/findme/

this is the first day of my life

it's been a bad day
the giggling and the staring didn't make me feel comfortable btw.
it made me anxious and self conscious
i just wanted to crawl in a hole and disappear
i felt so socially awkward
i need to sleep.
get away.

i'd probably be happy.

three simple words

plain and simple

i need sleep.
warmth, and less school.

i can't pick up the pieces

how silly of me to think that you would immediately fall in love with me
and live happily ever after.
I guess I am still livin' in my daydreams.
wake up call, anyone?

it's a rollercoaster of emotions

donde estas?

I was thinking of joining the station
maybe hosting my own show.
But I don't think I could do it alone.
I wish i had someone close who would do it.

all mixed up in the wash.

i am waiting, patiently.

leap of faith

I hope that is you.
I'd love to get to know you.
Maybe next time i'll be brave enough, and say hi.

baby just say yes.

your sexy and you know it.

do you know what it feels like?

it's a love story

"And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it is only with hte heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eyes"

cinder and smoke

Here is your horoscope for
Friday, January 16:
You're in the middle of a big decision and you need to take the least selfish option. It may hurt a little, but it should feel a lot better once you're past this current phase. You can get your way later.

now tell me which one is the least selfish one?
Cause i don't know anymore.
Thanks.

se me olvido otra vez.

I think we should be just friends.

sorry.

waterfalls

Dear winter;

Bring it on.

I am ready to kick your ass.

yours;

me.

it's gonna be me.

I hate winter, and the cold.

I hope things work out.

I am dreading tomorow.

I am scared for what the doctor will say.

I need sleep.

sunshine, lolipops and rainbows.

there is just something beautiful about the sunshine and sunflowers.
they just sparkle, and look so bright and beautiful.
if i could just live in a world filled with sunshine and sunflowers, i'd be happy as ever.

I am glad we are on the same page now.
maybe we can progress into something better.

I am so excited
I cannot wait to go back home,
and visit.
I will be so emotional, I can feel it.

I just dream of showing up in front of my family's house and giving them all a big huge hug.

it'd make my day.

<3

we are two worlds apart.

This morning I woke up with bumps on my lips.
Only to find out it was dried blood.
Which means my lips are ubber chapped... again.
One of the main reasons as to why i dislike the cold.

Yesterday I had the most awkward conversation with the parents.
Ellos me pregntaron si yo sabia que tú querias mudarte y vivir aqui.
Yo no sabia eso. Espero que sea de verdad, porque yo quisiera verte para ver como me siento.
No porque tú eres feo pero porque no se si tendremos esa conexión.
A la misma vez no quiero que tú vengas por mi porque no me senteria bien. A lo mejor tú tienes la idea que si vienes nosotros podremos ajuntarnos y hacernos una pareja. Pero no quiero que pienses eso si vas a venir, porque si yo al final no siento lo mismo que tú sientes por mi, yo me sientera mál porque viniste por nada. No se, estoy confundida.
Mis padres no me entendieron cuando yo dije que no sabia si tenia sentimientos por ti porque yo necesito verte. No se es algo complicado.

Today with my family we will see a movie then we will go out and eat to celebrate our anniversary here.
I hope we see bride wars. I've heard it is a good movie.
I have a couple of things to read for school then i should be good.
Yesterday was good, hanging out with my friends from spanish class.
I was the youngest one there but that's okay, it wasn't too bad, we had fun.
Now all I have to do is go and sing karaoke.

<3

The rhythym' pumping in my heart,

Days like these it's when i long to go back home.
Seeing the crappy weather outside,
the streets filled with snow.
I just miss it so much.

Sometimes I think the reason as to why I miss it so much it's because i haven't been there in eight years.
Today is our eight year anniversary in this country.
I feel like I would be destroying everything my parents worked so hard for if i moved back.
I don't want to do that.
I guess I just need to visit.
I miss everything about it.

El malecón, las playas, las calles, mis amigos, mis tíos y tías, mis primos y primas, mi familia, la vida que yo tenia, todo lo estraño.
Aunquesiera unos dias que voy de visita, no importa.
Nadamas quiero volver.
Mirar, difrutar, vivir un poco.
Porque aqui hay dias que siento que de en poquito a poquito me estoy muriendo de tanto estrañar.
Yo se que algun día volvere a mi país.
Pero hasta ahora, nadamas puedo esperar.

Feliz Anniversario.

<3

pero es que mi instinto no sabe de amores

Today I have a lot of things to do.
I have plenty of time too,
it's just getting down to business.
which is the only hard thing for me to accomplish.

También hoy me estoy muriendo de hambre.
No sé lo que voy a comer.
Estoy en la escuela por un terrible periodo de tiempo.
Lo odio.

Il suffit de venir en ligne, s'il vous plaît?

Juste avant-première sur.
Je sais que vous pouvez faire.
Vous m'a même dit vous-même.

Estic començant a aconseguir ansiós.
i encara famolenc.
Necessito unes vacances aviat,
vull tornar i els veig a tots.

ps. Je n'aime pas le froid et neige

i'm weak in the knees for you

I thought today would be the day.
I was ready to say everything I wanted.
I was ready.

com jo desitgen que jo el podria dir.
però els jo a penes saben ja.
jo estic perdut així.

Now I wake up, get an email,
and it goes downhill.
Communication is cut off,
for how long?
I don't know.

Je suppose que je peux considérer cela comme un signe.
C'est peut-être les choses ne sont pas censés être.
Je n'ai aucune idée de ce qu'il faut penser plus.
Je suis de retour à la scène confondus.

Yo quiero que me mandes un correo pa'tras
Esto me está matando.
De poquito a poquito.

agh.

the heart brings you back.

I'm sorry,
I don't know what to do,
Or how to think.
You are a good person.
I just need a sign,
Telling me what to do.

cause after all your my wonderwall

you left me speachless.
i have no words to describe what was said.
it's in my brain, slowly trying to decipher
the puzzle you left me.
it's probably not a puzzle as i'm thinking it to be,
but still.
it can't be like this,
it's too simple.
way too simple.

i need to figure this all out
there are some obstacles
like the fact that i can't make up my mind.
i need to see this in person
with my own eyes,
hear it with my own ears.
i need to witness it.
in order to really believe what you said.

things aren't as simple as we make it to be.
even if they are that simple,
i am still uncertain,
of what will happen.
only time will tell where this is headed.
but for now, i am enjoying it.

quisiera regalarte las estrellas en una caja de cristal

school today
i thought i would get english mark today
but now i have to wait till friday
this is killing me.

i am hoping i find out my spanish mark today
if not i will cry
and hopefully education on tuesday
i hate not knowing my marks
it scares me slightly,
cause i have no idea how i am doing.

but it's frost week.
yay.
let's frost it up.

it's too late to apologize

it's been a while since i've written
back to school tomorow
yuck.

but on the bright side i am learning
how to write and speak in catalan.
yay :]

and btw i had a weird dream,
yet it was nice.

new year

it's finally 2009
it's a new year
it's a new way of living
a fresh start